I was conversing with a friend of mine and it sparked a discussion between us that I have mulled over ever since. There is a concept in most Christian circles that pain is something God uses to teach us something or to make us something greater than what we are. The concepts of ‘growth requires stretching’ and ‘being tried by fire’ are sometimes applied in ways that I do not think are biblically sound. So I started considering.
People have said to me, in so many words, “God has us go through terrible things so that someday we’ll be able to minister to other people who are suffering the same kind of pain.” The other concept that has been widely promoted among Christian circles (Happily, no one has offered this sage advice to me….yet…) is the idea that tragedy and suffering are God’s way of ‘getting our attention’ so that we can address hidden sin in our life. That is the very idea that one of Job’s so-called friends, Elihu, promoted in Chapter 36 of the book of Job: “But by means of their suffering, [God] rescues those who suffer. For He gets their attention through adversity.” Job 36:15 (NLT) I’m afraid I may myself have said similar things trying to bring some reason, some justification or explanation as to why suffering is a part of the life of a believer. But is this concept of God – that Elihu and many modern-day Christians support – a realistic portrayal of WHO He Is? Now standing on the other side of the equation, I realize that kind of thinking is not only unhelpful – it is also untrue. I cannot deny that God has already placed opportunities in my life to minister to people who are suffering the effects from similar tragedies as my own. But the idea that God had a hand in my suffering is so contrary to His nature that I find it now utterly repulsive.
Some people may have a picture of God as a distant, cold, unyielding judge. But my understanding of God the Father is in great part shaped by my earthly father. My daddy did not teach my brother and I through pain. I don’t think I can ever remember a time my father raised his hand to me. He would have done anything in his power to keep us both from having any kind of hurt or pain. If we were hurting, his heart ached for us. I know he would have taken our place willingly a thousand times over to spare us any kind of hurt. That’s just who he was. But I do remember times when he showed me how things that hurt me were temporary and sometimes he even showed me how I could come out stronger on the other side of a painful period in my life. But he would not be the cause of those things. God did not want my father to die. I believe there was a cacophony of cries in the spirit realm as the Host of Heaven…indeed, the Father Himself, pleaded with my Daddy’s sick and broken spirit man not to take his own life – not to snuff out the gift so graciously given. The free will given to humanity was God’s greatest gamble. Without it, we could not love Him truly. With it, we could hurt Him most deeply. Death is not meant to teach us anything. It was never a part of His plan. “When Adam sinned, sin entered the world. Adam’s sin brought death, so death spread to everyone, for everyone sinned.” Romans 5:12 (NLT)
So all that said, I come to this conclusion; rather than saying, “God has us go through terrible things…” I should instead say, “When we go through terrible things, God shows us how we can use our pain to help others.” This is His goodness, His amazing compassion for us: that He sees what is horrible and nightmarish in our life and slowly heals us from it. And within that restoration, He allows us to be instruments of healing for others. This concurs with the nature of my Abba Father and I take comfort in this.
What the Word tells me of God’s role in my grief is this: I see in James 5:11 (NLT) that God honors “…those who endure under suffering. For instance, you know about Job, a man of great endurance. You can see how the Lord was kind to him at the end, for the Lord is full of tenderness and mercy.” I know from the Psalms that God sees my “…trouble and grief; [and He considers] it to take it in hand. The victim commits himself to [Him]; [He is] the helper of the fatherless….[The Lord hears] the desire of the afflicted; [He] encourages them, and [He] listens to their cry…”Psalm 10:14, 17 (NIV) Perhaps what brings me the most solace is when He says, “…I know their sorrows…” Exodus 3:7b (NKJV).
In Isaiah 35:10 (NLT) tells us that “Those who have been ransomed by the Lord will return. They will enter Jerusalem singing, crowned with everlasting joy. Sorrow and mourning will disappear, and they will be filled with joy and gladness.” Revelation 21:4 (NLT) gives us a picture of heaven as a place that suffering has no place: “He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.”
Perhaps in modern life I had become so consumed with the hear-and-now that I had lost sight of why I should long for that “Glorious Day” of His appearing. Now I have renewed vision as to why I should not be satisfied “here below” as the old song writers put it. God did not put me here in this place of sorrow, but He will bring me out of it.